When I am at the end of my life, I will look back with the knowledge that I lived half of mine asleep and the rest of it awake.
I spent most of the first half of life fixated on some idea of perfection trying desperately to get somewhere, be something, do something, attain something and other fruitless endeavors.
I was obsessed with chocolate chip cookies and never met a carb or a dessert I didn’t love.
I felt betrayed by my body and was never the right weight at times resorting to drugs to ease the pain, and all the while growing more depressed and spiritually disconnected which as you can imagine, was a real big downer. Behind the outward laughs, the good times displayed on social media, and the many wild things I did and still lived to tell, I was pretty lost on the inside and acting overly confident on the outside
After years of creating a business that garnered a lot of external praise but left me feeling empty inside, this contradiction took its toll on me physically, emotionally, and mentally.
One day my body simply gave in to the years of unhealthiness, and a diagnosis of skin cancer stopped me in my tracks. The word “cancer” uttered from the mouth of my doctor was no laughing matter.
I was going to have a scar down the bridge of my nose forever; a scar that symbolized how long I had ignored my body and my spirit. A reminder that I kept running in circles when I should have stopped and listened to my inner voice gently whispering to me to re-evaluate, re-define and re-connect.
At the doorway of my 30’s, in a desperate attempt to heal my body, I embarked on a journey of self-realization disguised as eating healthier – but what I had no way of knowing at the time is that in the eight years that followed, I would end up transforming every perception I had formerly held about myself, and reinventing every aspect of my life.
Along this journey, I realized many things. The most important of these discoveries were that my lifelong preoccupation with weight, food and success…
In the course of healing, and starting to honor and integrate all of the pieces of self, I came to understand what I now refer to as “the anatomy of transformation,” which is comprised of four distinct phases; truth, release, experience and align, which I have since guided hundreds of women through.
The clients with whom I work seek me out for support in dealing with all kinds of conditions ranging from I am not happy, I want a new relationship, career or a brand new life. But regardless of the various goals, my intention is always the same.
The truth is, you are energy and light, glorious, radiant and powerful.
Not one other person on the planet has the same exact energy as you. I call this unique, one and only rock star energy,
We are each born with a unique creative energy flow running through our bodies and when we discover and align with it, we become unstoppable and access streams of wisdom and inspiration like we have never known before.
Perhaps you, like me all those years, are just hoping to understand yourself better or manifest something new. Maybe you want to let go of emotional pain or discover your purpose and redefine your life.
And if this is your quest, know that you have been guided to the perfect place.
Right now, you cannot even fathom all the ways you are going to evolve and expand, or the many insights that will open up for you along the way.
But as you start to awaken and begin to experience miracles, you will create space for the dawning of deeper truths that are waiting to be born.
I am a dancer. With every bone, muscle, fiber, cell and electrical impulse that I am, my body wants to move. You will find me tapping my feet under my desk, dancing in my chair and if you put on music…forget about it!
I love my husband beyond words. He is quiet, mellow, and has the patience to untangled a necklace when I am at my wits end. He is a lotta bit rock n’ rock, he is an astrological six planet stellium, he can size up a person’s character in about one second and he is laugh out loud until you can’t breathe kind of funny.
My son, Jameson is the heart and soul of my life and my greatest teacher. Right when I think I know it all, he shows me the truth. He has dimples to die for and he sparkles, as we all should. He is a wisdom keeper and my earth angel.
I have had the experience of giving up everything I thought I was to discover the truth of who I am. I literally built an entire life full of success, material things, circles of friends, and yet I felt semi-empty inside. Something was off and the whispers of my soul were speaking to me… loudly. So, I chose to listen, intently, courageously and to follow those whispers. They were my motivation. They lead me to a new life. One I could never have dreamed up and one that I am grateful for every single day.
I love kombucha. Nothing like a little bubble to put a spring in your step and especially awesome if that bubble is building health. Now, that I have gone public with this, don’t even get me started about kombucha on tap. I can’t even begin to tell you…. it’s like a little slice of heaven…soooo good!!!
Many of my relatives did not create the life they wanted to be living because of fear. This has traveled through multiple generations of my family all the way to me. Yes, I used to live with some pretty intense fear and the wild part is that I didn’t even know it was there. It was buried so deep. On the path to greater freedom; understanding and working with fear in necessary. Fear is only as big as you think it is. Fear and I have a truly loving relationship now. I don’t resist it and it doesn’t stop me.
I had two spirit friends when I was a child. They rocked! They were with me all of the time and they played with me for hours in my room as a child. They were love in every sense of the word. Feeling misunderstood was typical for me, but those two beautiful spirits “got me” and kept me connected to my truth.
I love all things spirit, soul, frequency, higher consciousness, miracles and so forth and I also love business, am driven and like to take action. My mind is open to miracles and my feet are on the ground and I use all of it to create a fulfilling reality in which to live. I am a blend of all things, and so are you. When you learn to integrate all of you, even the parts that you judge, you access your true power.
Some of my clients think that I am always so positive and happy and the reality is that you can’t shine the light if you are unwilling to experience darkness. The two go hand in hand. The brighter your light, the more darkness there is too. The truth is that lightness is not good and darkness is not bad. Both are aspects within me, within you, and within life. Both are powerful and necessary. Without contraction, there is no expansion. I have tons of energy and light to shine on others because I fully embrace the dark in me too.
Many times, people have told me I was too much; too sensitive, too passionate, too driven, too emotional. For years, I wanted to tone down my “too-ness” until I realized that my “too-ness” is my greatest gift. I offer my “too-ness” daily to others so they can embrace their “too-ness” and create great things with it. Don’t let other people’s fear and BS stop you from having one heck of a human experience.